Secrets
I decided to write you a note
A pretty little note
That says all the things I can not
The words that wont come out
The letters I type are just as meaningful
As the words that I could not speak
I tell you lies
All I tell you are lies
All of them I say
Just to hide
Hide away from you
Hide away from me
I dont want you to know me
I dont want to know myself
But I have to let it go
I have to let you in
Im ashamed to show you my insides
Im ashamed to tell you how I feel
Im ashamed of who I am
Im ashamed of so many things
The evidence is all around
Underneath my clothes
Underneath my
Are You Sure?
You think you get it
Im not so sure about that
You cant imagine what Ive been through
You cant imagine what Ive seen
You cant imagine how hard my life has been
You think you know me
But youre wrong
You only see what I want you to see
I hate the fact that you agree
And tell me that you understand
I know you want to get it
But I just dont think you can
You dont know what its like for me
Walking through my life
And thinking of such ugly things
Wondering what it would be like
To have had a happy childhood
To have had a normal life
To have been a kid
An
Current Residence: US Favourite genre of music: ...All Kinds... Favourite photographer: ... Favourite style of art: ... Favourite cartoon character: ...Pluto... Personal Quote: ..."Life Is A Show And We All Play A Part"...
Favourite Visual Artist
...A Lot...
Favourite Movies
...Silance Of The Lambs...
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
...Too Many...
Favourite Writers
...Mona Masters...
Favourite Games
...CircleCircle...
Favourite Gaming Platform
...Puzzles...
Tools of the Trade
...Camera...Pencil...Pen...Colorpencil...Markers...Anthing I Can Use To Draw With Really...
Someday
do you get it yet
are you aware of what you do to me
can you see it now
look at me and see
see that i am fragile
see that i am frantic
when you are not near
see me as i am
hear my screams
and listen to my cries
i am me
and that is that
i can not change
for this is who i am
i'm sorry i'm not what you want me to be
this is for no one
this is for nothing
i am just a person
who needs a little love
who needs
a little understanding
who wants just a simple
a simple life
with a husband
and for me to be a wife
a mother
a sister
a daughter
someone no one worries for
someone no one doesn't understand
i need you to
i didn't mean to be so confused
i didn't mean to hurt you
i didn't' mean to say those things
i didn't mean that i love you
i didn't mean to take that away from you
i didn't mean for you to hate me
i didn't mean for all those years to disappear
i didn't mean to kill myself
i didn't mean to go so deep
i didn't mean wake you up
i didn't mean for you to find out
i didn't mean anything
i didn't want us to end this way
i didn't want you to forget me
i didn't want to forget you
i didn't want this to end
i didn't want any of this
i didn't mean to want those ugly things
i didn't mean it
i want to take it back
i want to mean i love
i'm running out of ideas... i don't seem to have any creativity lately... it's like i'm lost in my mind and not in the good way like i used to be... i hate this... seems everything's already been done before... i just don't know where to start and i don't know where to end...