Someday

do you get it yet
are you aware of what you do to me
can you see it now
look at me and see
see that i am fragile
see that i am frantic
when you are not near
see me as i am
hear my screams
and listen to my cries
i am me
and that is that
i can not change
for this is who i am
i’m sorry i’m not what you want me to be
this is for no one
this is for nothing
i am just a person
who needs a little love
who needs
a little understanding
who wants just a simple
a simple life
with a husband
and for me to be a wife
a mother
a sister
a daughter
someone no one worries for
someone no one doesn’t understand
i need you to love me
when i don’t deserve it
you know that’s when i need it most
when it hurts for you to love me
when i hurts for you to see me
when you hate to look into my eyes
out of fear of seeing
what you wish wasn’t there
it wont always be there
someday it will disappear
Someday
i will be what you want me to be
a whole person
with no reason to feel ashamed
and no reason to feel like hurting
it will come
just don’t give up on me

i didn't mean to be so confused
i didn't mean to hurt you
i didn't' mean to say those things
i didn't mean that i love you
i didn't mean to take that away from you
i didn't mean for you to hate me
i didn't mean for all those years to disappear
i didn't mean to kill myself
i didn't mean to go so deep
i didn't mean wake you up
i didn't mean for you to find out
i didn't mean anything
i didn't want us to end this way
i didn't want you to forget me
i didn't want to forget you
i didn't want this to end
i didn't want any of this
i didn't mean to want those ugly things
i didn't mean it
i want to take it back
i want to mean i love you
i want you to mean you love me
but it all comes out as hate
and i'm sorry i'm so confused
i do love you
now and forever...

i'm running out of ideas... i don't seem to have any creativity lately... it's like i'm lost in my mind and not in the good way like i used to be... i hate this... seems everything's already been done before... i just don't know where to start and i don't know where to end...

why do i know you
where i have i seen you before
have you got my number
can you see it on my forehead
can you tell me
when am i going
is it going to be tomorrow
is it going to be today
maybe next week
maybe next month
can you tell me this
can you
i can't seem to find the answer
i can't seem to know the right direction
i'm so lost
where have i gone

so you see i'm bored and i don't know what the hell to do... to do to do to do ta da... la la... frolicked lick lick lick frick dick kick prick finger dinger pickle prickle... hi ho hi ho off to work we go... hi ho hi ho... of to work we go... freddy cruger... that's not how you spell that... THAT... that is how you spell that... and then are you ummm... what the fuck am i doing it is time for us all to bring me to the ball game and take me out to the movies are fun to watch me play with my balls are fun to do to do to do do ca ca do do... penis licker fucker juice... stoned... no are you okay are you sure... am i sure about what? what are you the one two three four five for 2 one seven heads in a duffel bag... of chips and a shake of cheese strawberry wine... bebe... ga ga... gooo gooo... ummdinger.... froger licken good dog... no bad stoooooooooooooo
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pppppppppppickle.... mmm.... wow.....mmmmmmmmmmmmm
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is the evil spawn of milk.. muhahaha...
all the socks in the land of OZ are mine... up on
the roof top click click click down through the chimney with old saint nickalodeaon... what the ffffffffffffffffffffffffuck are you talking to me... bout.... dontcha know.... umm... okay bye bye now i lub you...





END...FINN......sincerely Katt